有时候会出现无法预料的 让我们无法理想的达成所要做的 但硬要逼我 觉得我一定能帮到能做到 那些强硬的行为让我明了原来人只会顾自己 不在乎别人会如何 之少当时我有这样的感觉

i was wondering did my intelligence drop a great deal, from the time I enlisted into NS till the time I left, though I wasn’t vocated as an unlucky frontline soldier but a technical specalist expertise in certain fields, consider lucky yet it didn’t help still.  I just came across some depressing soldiers sorrowing on how their life is ruined right now suffering in there, haa its all over for me yet I still need go back for 2 half months soon. Guess i can’t even plan what to do for the coming holidays. 

I do not have much friends in the past, due to fact that I wasn’t into computer games like the yougn people of that time did. Spend most of my time hanging out, working, if not with gfs. At tiem i feel bad thinking bad i neglected friends by spending too much time with gfs, and go back to them when i turn single. Get to know lots of people since then when i get enlisted, in and out of camp. Played alot during that time, engrossed in arts, musics and no academics stuff at all. Now and then I would still think that 1 and 1/2 to 2 years  time, what could i have done, or how much of time had been wasted.

I guess from then till now, been constantly making new friends here and there, and i started to like to get to know new people and friends. Outdoor or social life perk me up, and home with books kills my vitality. I love spending time with friends, eating or watch a movie together, play some com games at home or music together. I simply love all these nowadays, kept me healthy mentally. But i have to admit, learning and gettign in touch with music have linked me up with many good things and people in my life amazing by fate, who and which had came to influence me alot.

I guess for now, thats me.

最后还是不说出来会比较好 毕竟只是一场梦